It feels as though I have entered a revolving door to the many transitions of life. Lucas is now a second year college student and Logan is a senior in high school.
The minute Lucas walked his high school graduation podium, I just knew the next day would mark the beginning and the end of our family unit of 3 at home. We prepared for Lucas' entry to UCSB, the summer was short. Lucas worked as an ocean lifeguard all summer and found very little time together. We shopped for dorm room essentials, we tried.. (well I did) try not to get too emotional as I helped picked out items for him. His launch could not have been more perfect than it was. God had it all planned perfectly! God picked the right roommates, college environment and actives that appealed to him. It helped eased the separation anxiety I was feeling. And here we are, on his second year at college and just about to turn 20 years old.
Logan is preparing as best he can to have a senior year worth remembering. The pandemic arrived early this year and unfortunately, it is still lingering for who knows how long. I'm saddened that the prospect of having an in-person schooling is looking very dim. There's so much loss to even try to count. Logan is online studying and has learned to adapt to this with a better attitude that I imagined. He is now writing his college essays holding hope that he would land at one of his desired colleges.
I pray continually and trust that God is in control. I can't reconcile in my mind this pandemic and how our lives have been so affected in so many ways.. We are living in a new way that is less social, less active and more isolated. I have decided that I will stop wondering and just pray for the recovery of our world soon.
Transitions are challenging. I'm about to enter another one (empty nest) and I'm not ready to accept even the thought of it yet.
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