It's been 18 months and so much has happened. How could have we continued life without you? Most days, I still feel like I'm just going through the motions. Yes, we're surviving but it doesn't feel right or normal (we left behind "normal" 18 months ago).
The boys and I have made heavy foot tracks on our path uphill yet forward direction. I suppose it's what we are supposed to do. It's what the world expects of us to function and get back to the mainstream of life. Yet, inside of me I feel conflicted sort of a betrayal of my past. Because moving forward also means I have advanced so far away from my beautiful life with you--I feel so far away from those memories...our amazing love story, our adventures, our life as a family of four.
I'm keeping your dreams for our boys alive. It's a monumental task, but I'm all in!
Faith, hope and love are getting us through.
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