Thank you Nicole

A dear friend Nicole came over and shared with me that she has been wanting to mention and suggest that I create a blog.  Frankly, it never occured to me and wasn't sure I would have the time.  As I thought more about it, I love the idea of sharing with others in this format, when I simply can't pick-up the phone or be courageous enough to discuss the ongoings of our day.  There are so many people who have reached out to out, supported us and I can't think of a better way to share our updates than this.  Thank you Nicole !

Today is June 18, 2011 - the day before Father's Day.  Lucas is at Knott's Berry Farm with his teachers and friends, followed by a sleepover birthday party for his best friend Jack.  Logan, has 6 friends over for a swim party, then we are playing a round of golf with other friends.  At the end of the day, I hope to have filled their tanks with joy and fond memories for them.

My husband passed away 3 months and 2 days ago.  This coming Father's Day has been looming over me like a dark cloud just about to pour.  I have been having some anxiety about what to do on this day and just the sadness of it all. Sometimes I wish I could sleep the day off and wake-up to Monday.  But that is not the case.  We will be courageous and get through this day.

Last night, the boys and I were watching the movie Narnja.  There was a statement made in the film about "focusing our lives on what was given and not what was taken".  It was a strong reminder of how we should celebrate tomorrow to honor my husband- the most incredible father I have ever known.  Lucas and Logan have so many great memories etched in their hearts that the only way to approach tomorrow is with gratitude.